Weekend After Treatment Four

I’m learning that I need to just give in to the weekends. I wanted a walk with my friends so bad, but my body was gaggy, nausea brewing ickiness. So, Kalvin and I curled back in and slept. I basically slept all of Saturday away, and for the first weekend since treatment started, I never needed my puke pail.

Saturday night I tried a detox bath before some fresh jammies but, I’ve learned I shouldn’t be alone in there after a close call with nearly passing out. Even after the cold shower head on me, I was far too weak and shaky inside my body to be sitting in a tub filled with water.

I’m used to feeling strong, I’m used to productive Saturdays. I’m used to bathing in private. And, on the weekends after treatment, I need to give in to the weekend. For the next 20 weeks and probably beyond, I’ll befriend the couch, the PJs, the company in the bathroom, and watching from the sidelines.

My family has always been hands on in the kitchen and with household chores. I taught the kids from a young age, we all live here, we all clean here. We all eat here, we all cook here. We all wear laundry here, we all use the machines here. I’m glad I did, because now I have to count on them. Mikey is the main man on groceries, he always has been. He likes it, and he’s better at it than me. I don’t like to be on the sidelines. I hate it, actually. I feel like that teammate who just sits on the bench. And, I’m used to being the captain.

At least I have Kalvin sitting on the bench keeping me company. At least Mikey makes sure we have all the good colours of Gatorade. At least my team didn’t fold when I got an “injury”, and at least I’m still smiling.

Sunday night some energy began to return, and I packaged some more of the hats that have been showing up from you guys! I’m so excited to give them out on Thursdays or other days when I’m at the cancer clinic. Thank you for helping me spread hope and healing, one hat at a time! It’s one more reason to smile!

In a sea full of reasons not to be smiling, we can always find some, or create more!