What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You STRONGER

Well things after surgery went downhill faster than that day I was tobogganing at Seacliff Park and smashed into the tree.

I woke up Thursday morning shaking uncontrollably. I thought it was my body trying to shake off all of the trauma that happened with the surgery. I kept getting colder and colder and there weren’t enough blankets in the house to warm me. By mid afternoon I was so weak and knew there was no way I was able to get in the jeep to go to ER. Mikey called EMS and the paramedics were so amazing. I realized we were on the highway and wondered what was going on. They told me it’s protocol for all cancer patients. I wasn’t about to tell them I don’t like being called a cancer patient at that stage I just succumbed to the fact.

My blood pressure was low, my heart rate high and I had a fever.

We had no wait in the ER and within minutes they were intervening. Sadly, the hydration didn’t help the blood pressure and it kept getting lower and lower. They moved me to a nurse in ER that was with me monitoring continuously. Soon, an ICU doctor came in and started telling me that they needed to move me to the ICU amd start me on a life saving medication to stabilize the blood pressure. He told me that if it didn’t work fast they would have to put in a central line and asked for verbal consent. At that point all I could say is ok to everyone in my face.

I knew it was serious and I was thankful they were all being so nice.

I continued to talk to my body even in my rather delirious state about co operating and letting the meds do their job so we can avoid as many interventions as possible. And that’s what happened. The Levophed started to work and over the next two days everything stabilized but the fever keeps coming back and I’ve been in ICU for 5 days.

They’ll be moving me to the oncology floor today after 5 days in the ICU. I want to go home so badly. I’ve had company and I know I’m loved but there’s nothing like home. I might get to go outside today and see Kalvin. Cancer really sucks. But, I’m one tough cookie with lots to still do and experience in this world. I had some amazing nurses, Lauren, Michelle, Kayla and Heidi I can’t thank you enough for the love and care you give. Every move you made helped save my life and your hugs touched the depths of my soul. Near death experiences have nothing on me. See you all real soon! What didn’t kill me made me stronger. I love you all!