Trust the Timing
He sits and looks at the road waiting for his momma to come home. This dog stole my heart.
When the time is just right sweet Kalvin. I’ll be back home to you.
He’s grown up so much since his first birthday which was the same day as my surgery just 6 days ago. He is being so much more independent and taking turns sleeping with whoever he feels turn it is. He looked different from the time I saw him in ICU Friday to yesterday’s visit.
He grew up. I can feel it. He amazes me. I’ve wanted to train him to be a therapy dog so he would fit in at work and then at one point because he likes to bark at strangers I thought: Amie, stop trying to make him something he isn’t. Just let him find his way.
He’s proven when he could find his way to me in ICU, when he didn’t bark at the nurses and instead showed them so much love, when he just is allowed to be himself that he can find his way.
I’ve been trying to figure out what is next for work. At the same time as my last chemo treatment my office was sold and I was given the news that it closes the end of the month. I freaked out and was upset by the timing. How does one finish chemo, have surgery and find a new office for when they want to go back to work? I was overwhelmed. Until I had a session and then I wasn’t. I was excited to see what’s next.
What I’m seeing is moving back home, where it all began in my little storage closet. Where I would go float in the pool between sessions or take a little nap. Only this time making it more work space on one level home on the other two. Very separate. I can see the metal sign, the floor mats, the new chairs and I can feel the vibe. I can see our follow up nights and our trainings and I can see the drink station. I can see having a room for my interns to use so they aren’t stressed as they grow. What I couldn’t see was Kalvin. He seemed like the main reason this was a terrible idea. He barks at strangers. The thing is, soundproofing will help. But, Kalvin isn’t a problem, he is ready. He just needs to find his way, and he will. Some might not accept that, and that’s ok.
I’m so ready to come back home when the time is right. I’m so ready to source the sign, the chairs, the details I see. I’m so ready for pool floats and easier days.
So there we have it folks. When the door opens again, it will look different and that could change at any minute but I’m here for it and I’m excited, and I can’t wait to hug you all!
Love,
Amie and Kalvin
